how bad do you want it?

such a good motivational video.

"as soon as you want something as much as you want to breathe, that's when you will be successful."

you can't define it.

It's easy to put a definition on what will make you happy.
Setting guidelines that you want your life to live by, to make you happy.
Well what happens when life changes and doesn't go your way?
you aren't going to be happy anymore?
well welcome to life. 
it has a funny way of doing just that.
so what do you do?
realize that there isn't one certain way of living that will make you happy.
You have to adapt to what ever gets thrown your way.
i learned this week that it is easy to shut off.
it's easy to make yourself immune to feeling.
to choose to be short answered to everyone, and not care what anyone has to say or think.
yeah maybe you'll get by living that way for awhile.
but once you realize that it is okay to be okay with things.. 
to be open to new ways of life,
you can be just as happy as before..
yeah maybe you'd wish your life was one certain way,
and hopefully it will come to that.
but for now, be happy.
love with all you have,
the way you have it.
because how bad is it going to suck to look back and think you could have been just as happy with the way things were but you were too stubborn to have it any other way.;
yeah maybe it's hard, but it's so worth it.
i'm happy.
i'm ready for new changes, a new way of life, 
no matter how it comes to me.

fight against the storm.

sometimes you just feel pathetic.




it's like so bad you want to be with someone that you'd do honestly anything.. but you are so scared to do the wrong thing that you end up screwing things up in the process. You are so scared that you are going to make the wrong move, or say the wrong thing.. that while being so hesitant to the person you end up messing everything up. You want them to be happy, but realizing they could be perfectly happy without you sends you through a world of shock. You want to be so close to them, but end up distancing yourself so they don't want to be distanced from you first. people tell you that you are too young to know what love is, but you know that you've never loved something so much in all your life. You feel pathetic, and like the biggest joke possible.. while the only thing you know is that you might be madly in love with someone who might not feel the same way.

distance.

       

Just breathe. it's going to be okay.

to love.

to love is to expose your heart one hundred percent,
to show your flaws,
to hope to be kept safe,
to release your fears of being broken,
to rid yourself of the "what ifs"
to fill your mind with memories, and moments you wish to relive over and over,
to disregard what everyone else has to say,
to love another with all you've got,
to make the best out of life,
to find a reason worth living for,
to hope in return, that the other loves you just the same.

take me away.

I guess all i wish..

is that i was in hogwarts.

somehow that seems like it would make everything better.

for now..

the hp marathon will continue.

yayy....

december fifth.

cause when it rains, it pours.

agree.

For the moon, by night will hold you there,

along side my soul, and hopes, and dreams..

to hope that one day i will meet you there.

and all will be together as one.

as it should.