i don't think there has ever been a time, that i have been so confused.. ever.
i need someone.
i need someone to tell me what to do.
to help me make the best decision.
to tell me it's going to be alright.
to comfort the tears..
decision making, is near impossible for me.
especially when it's something that means as much as this one does.
part of me lives in movement.
i find fulfilment in creativity, fluidity, and expression.
the part of me that lives within the girls i spend every day with is so great,
that at times i don't think i could live without it.
but every rainbow has previous rain.
and this storm is almost to the point of not being worth fighting for.
the rainbow hasn't come, and i can't fight it anymore.
i wish i knew what to do.
i wish i could go to the future and see the two sides to this.
dance is what i need.
at times it has been the only thing i feel like i can call my own.
dance is my home.
not my dance studio, but dance itself.
the freedom received from it could never be described.
life is full of crucial decisions.
and i'm not ready to make this one.