it'll all go on without you.

the days seem endless.
and the nights are only restless.
sometimes there are those days.. where you just feel helpless. like soo much is going wrong and against you that it doesn't seem worth it to put up a fight. Those nights that crying seems to be the only cure.. and when someone asks why your crying, you can't even think of a real reason.. but you just are. The other night i honestly had the most pathetic emotional break down.. and on top of that two of my best friends decided to on the same night. One asking if they could come over, the other calling,.. and me just being retarted.. haha. The one came over.. and we talked for two hours.. then called the other and talked for another hour. Not to mention after a long day at dance.. and at least three hours of homework that i had procrastinated to do until the night before.. This isn't to pat myself on the back.. at all. but it made me realize something.. after getting everything done, and going to bed at four in the morning.. (early morning the next day at six haha) i had never felt so good in my life. In the most difficult hours the soul is replenished and given strength to continue and endure. You have to find the strength to accept it. Life doesn't let you chose the days to be strong enough to face what it brings. You have to chose to be strong enough to face it all, always. Life happens, but goes on and isn't going to wait for you to catch back up. So on the days you feel helpless, and giving up sounds better than ever.. i promise you it is the most satisfying feeling to keep going. to keep your head up. To scream into your pillow.. screw it. It's not worth it to let it get you down. Every passing minute is a chance to turn your life around.. if you don't like where you are going.. change it. Don't forget to love yourself, and be better than you were the day before. If you feel like you have lost everything.. i guess that means you are free to do anything. It is never to late to be who you might have been. and the second you feel like giving up.. remember why you held on for so long. You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. "I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and i believe in miracles." -Audrey Hepburn.
so keep going. it's worth it.